Today is my darling sister-Piggy Soo 18th birthday! I had been started to count down since yesterday because she was in New Zealand and the times differences are like 5 hours and since she is the main character today, so i had to followed her time.Been reminding my friends to reminds me i have a very important thing to do at 7pm.Luckily, i was able to stay awake by bathing as i had a very tiring schedule today.Anyway, Piggy Soo! Today is a very important for you and also alots of your friends including me lol! I will be celebrating your birthday without you in Malaysia.Don't worry it may seems a little quite in Auckland, But you know there are a big big differences compared in Malaysia. So What will i Do tomorrow? Btw, do you receievd my flowery card? Hopefully it reached on time if not i will cry die.
Plan for tomorrow- I slept from 8.30 to 11.30 and decided not to sleep because i have 2 reports in mind.But don't worry i will remember you during my process of dealing with atoms.And i have maths, chemistry and biology tomorrow. Oh,Maths reminds me of you. Then, after a busy tangling schedule, i will be having a nice lunch and also dinner. Honestly, foods remind me of you too. Remember we both have big stomach and once we ordered so many things in Genting Highlands. Ooops.Secret.Haha. Then Then Then, i will be back to Cyberjaya and looking out of my window.Maybe there are some nice pilots who will stop the aeroplane and fetch me through Atlantic Seas and met with my darling sister.Maybe right? Who knows:)
All in all. Tomorrow will be the day i seeing Felicia Soo So frequently appearing and overlapping my life. p.s i often see you though.Haha.
Piggy Soo.Don't think you are not important. You are 100x very important for me:) Who asks you offered to turn my world around wor.Is time for me to coloured your life pulak.
Lastly, Happy 18th Birthday Felicia Soo. Hmm.I don't think i need to elaborate much in here already because the most beautiful things cannot be seen or even touch, it must be felt within the heart. You are undoubtedly the most beautiful things that i ever wished for.
p.S: Rambutan dan Chan jgnlah envy pulak.You two are categorised the No.1 ranking too in my heart.Lol:)
I commit a whole bunch of sins these days.What happened to me? I wants back the good old me.
Toun@confessing
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
The Halt
Is just like other day in this rainy November. Bust yesterday was a bad one.
She was sound first time in her 18 teen years. Not to talk on the phone too long. Maybe she was too overwhelmed to get her first postpaid line and not aware of the over usage. But her mood was not too good.
She was once in mist because hard works she gave does not returns in anything. But yesterday biology paper proved her wrong. She thought she screw the first paper in mid semester because after a small discussion with her friends,she get almost all questions wrong and that made her helpless for the remaining papers.Her spirit was torn. But she found out that there are no absolute in this world and when you thought you do good, the result was not satisfying but when you thought you did it badly, it may suprise you.She was happy honestly, at least she knew her hard work finally paid. She can be better and she is not a loser anymore.
After the draggy class, night falls. Along with her friends, she waited for the bus. She was tired and exhausted as she had another assignment to be done. And she came across a question when she was doing a small quiz." Do You feel comfortable when you are in a merry or quiet situation. And which do you prefer?" without second thought, she goes to the second one. It seems like although she enjoy being under the spotlight, but it had been a burden for her lately. She don't feel like talking and doing silly jokes anymore. She was searching for sedimentation i guess. On the bottom concentrating only on her study.
Her Jay Chou was knocked on the head again due to her unawareness. And just now she only realise that her Black Backpack had a big hole in it.Just bought it 3 months ago. But sincerely this is her 2nd favourite bag after her blue one and the sling bag.She loves Body glove bags. Maybe is time for her to do some sewing.
Low production day.But still She enjoyed the gloomy Saturday because of her mom and aunt.
Story often reflects on our life.Do You?
She was sound first time in her 18 teen years. Not to talk on the phone too long. Maybe she was too overwhelmed to get her first postpaid line and not aware of the over usage. But her mood was not too good.
She was once in mist because hard works she gave does not returns in anything. But yesterday biology paper proved her wrong. She thought she screw the first paper in mid semester because after a small discussion with her friends,she get almost all questions wrong and that made her helpless for the remaining papers.Her spirit was torn. But she found out that there are no absolute in this world and when you thought you do good, the result was not satisfying but when you thought you did it badly, it may suprise you.She was happy honestly, at least she knew her hard work finally paid. She can be better and she is not a loser anymore.
After the draggy class, night falls. Along with her friends, she waited for the bus. She was tired and exhausted as she had another assignment to be done. And she came across a question when she was doing a small quiz." Do You feel comfortable when you are in a merry or quiet situation. And which do you prefer?" without second thought, she goes to the second one. It seems like although she enjoy being under the spotlight, but it had been a burden for her lately. She don't feel like talking and doing silly jokes anymore. She was searching for sedimentation i guess. On the bottom concentrating only on her study.
Her Jay Chou was knocked on the head again due to her unawareness. And just now she only realise that her Black Backpack had a big hole in it.Just bought it 3 months ago. But sincerely this is her 2nd favourite bag after her blue one and the sling bag.She loves Body glove bags. Maybe is time for her to do some sewing.
Low production day.But still She enjoyed the gloomy Saturday because of her mom and aunt.
Story often reflects on our life.Do You?
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
The Continuous
Apparently, the story continued. The day start with Maths class. "Ohh yea. My maths tutor is miles away in New Zealand now probably counting the numbers of sheeps there." daydreaming she was.
Finished a long journey of knowledge seeking, she was tired and emotionless. Her brain was numb and so do her fingers. But sadly she had another 2 report to be done tonight. All her faults for fail to resist the temptation of sleeping early the day before. Introduction and Discussion. She was a perfectionist in doing laboratory report and it often murdered so much of her time. Yet she received quite good comment on her hardwork and it burdens her a lot now. Because she was so afraid of unable to live on people expectation. She stucked the whole night and frankly speaking. By hook or by crook, she was expected to produced it by tonight.
Hoo.What a high expectation day she had! And while busy doing her intoduction, her Jay Chou went blank because the uncle in campus eventually shut down the cable and ta-da no electrical supply. Her heartbeat lost by 1 track because she had not saved her work yet. Luckily Jay Chou was strong enough but lets not have another heart attack anymore:( If Jay Chou got immune, he will slept forever.
And now alone she was doing her report in the campus which was merry with noises at the day but now not even a single sound. She was scared a little but her homework... Haiz...
She had no other options tonight.
Her life was a story.
Finished a long journey of knowledge seeking, she was tired and emotionless. Her brain was numb and so do her fingers. But sadly she had another 2 report to be done tonight. All her faults for fail to resist the temptation of sleeping early the day before. Introduction and Discussion. She was a perfectionist in doing laboratory report and it often murdered so much of her time. Yet she received quite good comment on her hardwork and it burdens her a lot now. Because she was so afraid of unable to live on people expectation. She stucked the whole night and frankly speaking. By hook or by crook, she was expected to produced it by tonight.
Hoo.What a high expectation day she had! And while busy doing her intoduction, her Jay Chou went blank because the uncle in campus eventually shut down the cable and ta-da no electrical supply. Her heartbeat lost by 1 track because she had not saved her work yet. Luckily Jay Chou was strong enough but lets not have another heart attack anymore:( If Jay Chou got immune, he will slept forever.
And now alone she was doing her report in the campus which was merry with noises at the day but now not even a single sound. She was scared a little but her homework... Haiz...
She had no other options tonight.
Her life was a story.
Monday, November 16, 2009
The Story
Slowly, she reached upon her phone on the bedside. "Auch.Heat." she muttered the two words and unwillingly she woke up and found that her phone was like a small oven radiating heat. The screen was dark and seems like her phone went into dead state. " Shoot! Again." declared dead.
Founding out her phone spoiled was a prologue of a bad day. The chemistry quiz on the following day made her hardly slept at night and her mind was full of energy transformation where she wish she can transform too. To a life without exams. Wearing her thick warm jacket, she went to school. Her pant was a little wet. The morning was a mixture of moist and smelly. Maybe because of the dead fish in the pond.
Taking the black body glove backpack and laptop in her bag, she swifted through crowd and made her way into the bus. Again. Packed with working and studying folks. The starting of the day wasn't so good. The quiz was hard and she realised she did wrongly for some simple calculation questions. Sighed. "Whats wrong with me?" she can hardly understand what the lecturer tried to express on the whiteboard. All she can think of was zillion lines stuffed in a small grid space. "Arghh.I hate Maths." she mumbled. Another quiz later. And supringsly she finished quite early. But rains was falling so heavily and she felt moody again due to the rainny day.
He wore a black shirt today. With grey lines lining neatly on the black background. He smiled sweetly and she felt lightning stroked. "Why must he smiled at me?" "Maybe he isn't" she can felt butterflies flying cheerfully in her stomach. She had this small little affections to him long ago. But she thought it was normal for a growing teen. And deep down the fragile heart, she knew they were two horizontal lines which will not intercept at the same point. Not now neither in the future. But the way he looked at her just melted her heart and she barely resist the urge to look into his eyes and feels the same as he does. Love and affections. Are like Maths and Physics which make her feel sick.
The story ended.
With dead silence.
p.s: This is just a story:)
Founding out her phone spoiled was a prologue of a bad day. The chemistry quiz on the following day made her hardly slept at night and her mind was full of energy transformation where she wish she can transform too. To a life without exams. Wearing her thick warm jacket, she went to school. Her pant was a little wet. The morning was a mixture of moist and smelly. Maybe because of the dead fish in the pond.
Taking the black body glove backpack and laptop in her bag, she swifted through crowd and made her way into the bus. Again. Packed with working and studying folks. The starting of the day wasn't so good. The quiz was hard and she realised she did wrongly for some simple calculation questions. Sighed. "Whats wrong with me?" she can hardly understand what the lecturer tried to express on the whiteboard. All she can think of was zillion lines stuffed in a small grid space. "Arghh.I hate Maths." she mumbled. Another quiz later. And supringsly she finished quite early. But rains was falling so heavily and she felt moody again due to the rainny day.
He wore a black shirt today. With grey lines lining neatly on the black background. He smiled sweetly and she felt lightning stroked. "Why must he smiled at me?" "Maybe he isn't" she can felt butterflies flying cheerfully in her stomach. She had this small little affections to him long ago. But she thought it was normal for a growing teen. And deep down the fragile heart, she knew they were two horizontal lines which will not intercept at the same point. Not now neither in the future. But the way he looked at her just melted her heart and she barely resist the urge to look into his eyes and feels the same as he does. Love and affections. Are like Maths and Physics which make her feel sick.
The story ended.
With dead silence.
p.s: This is just a story:)
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Blue Sun
Supposed to blog on 11th November 2009 because it was our SPM 1 Year anivessary. Dear 5 beeians, we had live without each other for more than a year and hopefully everyone is still doing good without forgetting the spirit of 5 Bee. 1 year passes in a blinking of an eye and me myself already passed the 18th boundary. Things happening too fast and i hardly grasp my breathe.
Just came back from biology field trip.Very nice outing except the raining part which made the animals choose to hibernate instead of grabbing freedom in air.So we missed a lot of fun during bird watching and all.But conclusion, i love to be close to nature. The greenish reminds me a lot about CBN and the monkeys. I still not so sure the best part of my life ended or just begun.
Having 2 subjects quiz tomorrow but i just can't concentrate and study. And not forgetting 2 lab report.I know there will be a few of sleepless night soon. I want to study but somehow my mind can't. Hmm.Dilemmaing.
Blue Sun the name had been followed me for more than 6 years ever since i got my 1st internet connection.Why Blue Sun? Everyone had been asking me. I can't figure it out myself too because it was created under some randomness i guess. But slowly i think that maybe i want to be a sun who brings warmth to the others but sometimes the heat radiated by the reddish orange sun seems to be a little irritating and brings sowful burning. Blue is a serenity colour. It still brings warmth to the others, neither too hot or cold.Just sooting feeling. Life can't always be sunny day and thats why i choose blue. Behind the coldness, you can still find a little warmth. Pei Xi once written " Don't be the sun who brings the blues, be the star that guide us through". But i still want to be the blue sun.Miserable sometimes but inner deep i will find my own way.
The story of life is quicker than a blink of an eye.The story of love is hello, goodbye.
Toun
Just came back from biology field trip.Very nice outing except the raining part which made the animals choose to hibernate instead of grabbing freedom in air.So we missed a lot of fun during bird watching and all.But conclusion, i love to be close to nature. The greenish reminds me a lot about CBN and the monkeys. I still not so sure the best part of my life ended or just begun.
Having 2 subjects quiz tomorrow but i just can't concentrate and study. And not forgetting 2 lab report.I know there will be a few of sleepless night soon. I want to study but somehow my mind can't. Hmm.Dilemmaing.
Blue Sun the name had been followed me for more than 6 years ever since i got my 1st internet connection.Why Blue Sun? Everyone had been asking me. I can't figure it out myself too because it was created under some randomness i guess. But slowly i think that maybe i want to be a sun who brings warmth to the others but sometimes the heat radiated by the reddish orange sun seems to be a little irritating and brings sowful burning. Blue is a serenity colour. It still brings warmth to the others, neither too hot or cold.Just sooting feeling. Life can't always be sunny day and thats why i choose blue. Behind the coldness, you can still find a little warmth. Pei Xi once written " Don't be the sun who brings the blues, be the star that guide us through". But i still want to be the blue sun.Miserable sometimes but inner deep i will find my own way.
The story of life is quicker than a blink of an eye.The story of love is hello, goodbye.
Toun
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Winning
I tried my best although the outcomes were not the ones i expected. Result coming out on Monday and is not the time for self pitying again.
Winning at the beginning of races doesn't mean that you will win at the end. A loser in a race will also stand a chance to win at the end of race. Yes you are good in everything, you seldom made mistakes but all humans have flaws and i believe you do.
I am not admiting i am way too bad compared with you. Everyone is equal and losing in this race doesn't promise i will lose to you too in the future.
Winning and competing for the aim of beating you were not my cup of teas. I am searching for self progessing. It might be slow and less benefits at the beginning but at the end of journey these are the things which nurture the souls of mine.
You just lose a chance to develop your inner strength and also your power as you don't know your limitations. Standing too high doesn't mean you will get the most beautiful scenery in life. Challenges are part of life journey that will only bring you closer to what you dream to be. And you lose another chance to grows.
I will excel in my own ways.And life is not about the 4.00 you get is about how you utilise your strength and benefits the other. Progressed in a whole not one.
AToun.
Winning at the beginning of races doesn't mean that you will win at the end. A loser in a race will also stand a chance to win at the end of race. Yes you are good in everything, you seldom made mistakes but all humans have flaws and i believe you do.
I am not admiting i am way too bad compared with you. Everyone is equal and losing in this race doesn't promise i will lose to you too in the future.
Winning and competing for the aim of beating you were not my cup of teas. I am searching for self progessing. It might be slow and less benefits at the beginning but at the end of journey these are the things which nurture the souls of mine.
You just lose a chance to develop your inner strength and also your power as you don't know your limitations. Standing too high doesn't mean you will get the most beautiful scenery in life. Challenges are part of life journey that will only bring you closer to what you dream to be. And you lose another chance to grows.
I will excel in my own ways.And life is not about the 4.00 you get is about how you utilise your strength and benefits the other. Progressed in a whole not one.
AToun.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I am Sad:(
Ever since I stepped my feet on Cyberjaya, my things had hardly have a peaceful day. My Sony Ericsson dropped into my cloth basket on the first week of my arrival here.And it took almost 2 months to be with me.And after only 2 weeks, it getting crazier. The button seems to all mixed around and it love to connect with the web.I didn't knew she loves Facebook or digi so much until want to connect so frequently:)
And not mentioning my "suddenly disappear" stuff. Today, when i went back to hostel and wanted to settled down and do my homework. I on my small blue fan brought by my mother from Kl Home sweet home. It was my saviour man, help me gone through so many sleepless night by providing a cooler sleeping environment and undoubtedly my room mate benefits from it too. She was with me days and nights, like a wind breeze guide me through the haze when i am revising. And ta-da, she stop functioning today.No presignals.Nothing.It work perfectly sweet yesterday night and this afternoon, declared dead. I love my fan seriously. And my mother said it will be more advisable to buy a new one. But mummy i seriously love my fan and it had been with me quite a long time in Kl although we seldom use it in home. But we still kept it and it brighthen my days in this lonely Cyberjaya.You see.She is not useless.But why? You choose to leave me tonight:(
Ok.Forgive me.I am becoming jiwang.But jiwang and crazyness are the two things i miss the most here. Read Sixth former blogs recently. Hectic but yet meaningful life.
I had made a choice and now i can understand why people said this. When you made a choice or decision in life, you will have to bear the consequences and also made the sacrifices. I had made mine.And Despite good or bad consequences, i will have to carried it myself. Have you?
Toun reminiscing
And not mentioning my "suddenly disappear" stuff. Today, when i went back to hostel and wanted to settled down and do my homework. I on my small blue fan brought by my mother from Kl Home sweet home. It was my saviour man, help me gone through so many sleepless night by providing a cooler sleeping environment and undoubtedly my room mate benefits from it too. She was with me days and nights, like a wind breeze guide me through the haze when i am revising. And ta-da, she stop functioning today.No presignals.Nothing.It work perfectly sweet yesterday night and this afternoon, declared dead. I love my fan seriously. And my mother said it will be more advisable to buy a new one. But mummy i seriously love my fan and it had been with me quite a long time in Kl although we seldom use it in home. But we still kept it and it brighthen my days in this lonely Cyberjaya.You see.She is not useless.But why? You choose to leave me tonight:(
Ok.Forgive me.I am becoming jiwang.But jiwang and crazyness are the two things i miss the most here. Read Sixth former blogs recently. Hectic but yet meaningful life.
I had made a choice and now i can understand why people said this. When you made a choice or decision in life, you will have to bear the consequences and also made the sacrifices. I had made mine.And Despite good or bad consequences, i will have to carried it myself. Have you?
Toun reminiscing
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