Winning

I tried my best although the outcomes were not the ones i expected. Result coming out on Monday and is not the time for self pitying again.

Winning at the beginning of races doesn't mean that you will win at the end. A loser in a race will also stand a chance to win at the end of race. Yes you are good in everything, you seldom made mistakes but all humans have flaws and i believe you do.

I am not admiting i am way too bad compared with you. Everyone is equal and losing in this race doesn't promise i will lose to you too in the future.

Winning and competing for the aim of beating you were not my cup of teas. I am searching for self progessing. It might be slow and less benefits at the beginning but at the end of journey these are the things which nurture the souls of mine.

You just lose a chance to develop your inner strength and also your power as you don't know your limitations. Standing too high doesn't mean you will get the most beautiful scenery in life. Challenges are part of life journey that will only bring you closer to what you dream to be. And you lose another chance to grows.

I will excel in my own ways.And life is not about the 4.00 you get is about how you utilise your strength and benefits the other. Progressed in a whole not one.

AToun.

I am Sad:(

Ever since I stepped my feet on Cyberjaya, my things had hardly have a peaceful day. My Sony Ericsson dropped into my cloth basket on the first week of my arrival here.And it took almost 2 months to be with me.And after only 2 weeks, it getting crazier. The button seems to all mixed around and it love to connect with the web.I didn't knew she loves Facebook or digi so much until want to connect so frequently:)

And not mentioning my "suddenly disappear" stuff. Today, when i went back to hostel and wanted to settled down and do my homework. I on my small blue fan brought by my mother from Kl Home sweet home. It was my saviour man, help me gone through so many sleepless night by providing a cooler sleeping environment and undoubtedly my room mate benefits from it too. She was with me days and nights, like a wind breeze guide me through the haze when i am revising. And ta-da, she stop functioning today.No presignals.Nothing.It work perfectly sweet yesterday night and this afternoon, declared dead. I love my fan seriously. And my mother said it will be more advisable to buy a new one. But mummy i seriously love my fan and it had been with me quite a long time in Kl although we seldom use it in home. But we still kept it and it brighthen my days in this lonely Cyberjaya.You see.She is not useless.But why? You choose to leave me tonight:(

Ok.Forgive me.I am becoming jiwang.But jiwang and crazyness are the two things i miss the most here. Read Sixth former blogs recently. Hectic but yet meaningful life.

I had made a choice and now i can understand why people said this. When you made a choice or decision in life, you will have to bear the consequences and also made the sacrifices. I had made mine.And Despite good or bad consequences, i will have to carried it myself. Have you?

Toun reminiscing

Happiness

I was supposed to update this long ago.Mr Shahril my lecturer for professional communication and presentation asked us to define happiness.My happiness was once make others happy. As i grows up,my happiness was the crazyness i bear to endure life. And now my happiness is "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means that you have decided to look beyond the imperfections". My happiness has imperfections and flaws. Once i thought that happiness is when you have your life in control, everything is on the right track and all you have is sunny day. But suprisingly my life somehow doesn't follow the ordinary path. I am climbing very very hard on this mountain.With all the ropes around strangling me. The surrounding was timid and the air flows through nostril were chilling. I tried my best but sadly not much positive outcomes. I work hard and i don't feel there is much different with the others.But why?

My mid semester exam just over.And overall :Average.I had been long at the average boundary. I don't want to be average anymore.Why can't i cross over the line? But everything seems so challenging. They refuse to let me crossed and wanted me to stay patiently quietly in my region. I had been classified. And i don't like that feelings.

Will be going to Malacca again this week for camping. I need to buy a Phua Chu Kang Boots. Slippery muds.Hope i will be fine.

"Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks"

Toun

Fast and Furious

Having exam this week.Will update very soon.Stay tune.

Hapiness is a voyage.Not a destination:)


Toun Missing Everyone

Attention Please!

People People and People:

I need you to do me a favor.Tomorrow will be the day i reach 18SX Boundary. But, firstly i need to collect 1018 birthday wishes in order for me to proceed.

So.Give me a birthday wish.In Facebook,Chatbox( Blog),Friendster or Message to my phone. All are welcomed.

Btw.Happy Deepavali,Folks.

p.s: Spread the news.Grammacy:)


Toun@Mrs CHou

Skating in the hard shell of life

Yes.Jay Chou scratch.And i don't even know when and how and why? Thought of using laptop screen polish.But i scare it will become worse.As in later the colour faded? I stare blanky at the scratch for nearly 20 minutes on sunday. I was really really upset.Gosh. Yet it happened. And i will find a way to solve it.

Many presentations had been done lately.However it seems a little bit difficult to score this semester.Somehow the chemistry amongst group member is lacking.And i found myself back to the situation when i was to lead pauline. Great leader is not about bringing only yourself to the peak but is about bringing everyone with you. I only knew that after a hard hit on ground.

The biology poster about biologically important molecules is very creative.We finished it and slept at 5am.Imagine. Puna Hidayah loves our ideas and it shown crystal clear on her face.Yet we forgot to include the title and 10marks gone.Sad indeed.It was a silly mistake and not worth to loss any marks.Yet i am satisfied about the outcomes because teacher loves our poster and we knew that we somehow succeed although we loss marks on minor aspect.

Today was all about chemistry sketch presentation.I play the character of Robert Boyle. I felt very excited before our presentation because we put quite an effort in it.Props, costumes and i even have wigs made by newspaper.Creative. However the flow was not that smooth and a bit of miscommunication. Teacher did love Robert Boyle but grammar part was not so nice. Honestly, i am dissapointed.

Friday-another upcoming 3D show about biology-Receptor mediated endocytosis. Hopefully we will do well this time and lets no regret.

" Forgetting you is just as simple as memorising the 20 elements in periodic table.It takes time but it works."


Toun Skating in the Deep Blue Sea

I am Sad

My Jay Chou has a 10cm scratch on it's shell.Yes.It is black in colour but is still visible.

I am Sad

Seriously

2 Months and 8 days.