Being alone

Have you ever felt like being left behind? Not having same topics with the others for quite some time? Left out for numerous parties and celebrations? Not in the popular groups?

Well, You are just being diagnosed with the "All alone" syndrome and Welcome to the team, mate!

Alright, I admitted it is not too bad yet. But for a popular freak (Once upon a time) like me, I might just die off. But hell yeah, I just kept going! Good thing to be grateful of.

Is just that sometimes I felt really alone in the deserted shore of no where. I still feel the same way. Looking upon the same faces, I don't really fit in. I mean I do make new friends and make a good impression. But here? Nah, I'm anti-social. Or should I say pro-solitary?

In either way, you can picture my world. Practically, not all part of my world is so pathetic, I do have my great hang out times with my best friends and all. But, sometimes University life is so darn lonely. Not having someone you can talk with, someone that you can rely on, someone that you feel like they will support you despite any circumstances. Where's all these good people?

A little part of me die everyday there. And it is so ironic that I have to endure it as part of my passionate chasing dream journey. I love being a medical student=) Learning all these biology and human-logy stuff is just simply impressing! But the place where I am.I still don't feel like fitting in.

Sad, I know. But what else I can really do beside being alone? Well, better be alone than in bad company, I remember.

But sometimes, really sometimes. You just hope that someone will remember you, That's it. Having your back being supported. Knowing that if you drown, there will be a hand of helping.

Sadly, this is not Convent Bukit Nanas. There will be no one rushing through to help. There will be no one wasting their precious times go crazy with you.

I guess I just have to be alone. It's just a feeling anyhow, I will go through it.

Just God, bring me some really good new friends? Alright. I still need someone to talk to. You know?

Happy Chinese New Year, Peeps! Though I know there's no one reading.

Sin Toun